35th Resurrection

[sanctus_dei]

[Theo stood for several minutes at the mailbox, with the Valentine's box at his feet. He could barely comprehend the flood of emotions and memories that just hit him. It couldn't be real - it didn't make any sense - but at the same time, it felt so real, it was hard to ignore.

He didn't even know she was in Mayfield until now. Nanoha... was she really here? Did it really happen? Meeting the powerful spellcaster, a brief but intense affair... it should seem absurd, but he couldn't deny what he felt, what he remembered.

He had to sort this out. Now.

Theo ran back into the house, and grabbed the phone.]

[Call filtered to: Nanoha Takamichi:]

......Nanoha.

Do you remember me?

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[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

[There's a small squeak on her end in surprise, not exactly being used to this kind of think. Then slowly]

.....yeah.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[There's a pause on his end too. He can hardly think straight. When he speaks, his voice is much softer than his usual tone.]

...You do. [Why does this make him feel better?]


I.... Things are strange. I didn't know you were here.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

I didn't either. Isn't that....rather odd? Well, Mayfield is rather cruel.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

It came back to me after I opened that package... did the same thing happen to you? Do you... Is it real, or is it Mayfield screwing with us?

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

I wish I could answer that truthfully but it all feels real.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Another pause. He wanted to see her, but he knew that was a bad idea.]


...What do we do?

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

What do you think we should do?

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

...I don't know. I don't even know if you'd want to see me. [a quiet, bitter laugh]

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

That's a silly thing to say.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Ugh, so awkward. Come on, Theo, you're a more confidence than this! Right?]

Then... can we meet up, maybe? Talk this out?

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

That's a good idea. How about now?

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He sounds a bit relieved.] Okay. How about the park?

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

See you there in fifteen minutes?

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

Alright.

[He'll be there right away. He's too anxious and excited. He'll also be pacing, and smoking like a chimeny.]

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

[Thankfully, Nanoha can fly so she shows up fairly early too. Early enough that Theo won't die of a heart attack.]

....hey.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He stops pacing when she approaches, and he throws down his cigarette and stamps it out. he was hoping that seeing Nanoha would somehow prove to himself that the memories werent't real, but now it felt stronger.

Damnit.]


Uh. Hey.


This... whatever's going on, it's gotta be the town screwing with us. Right? It can't...

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

That's going to be something you need to answer for yourself, Theo. But I'm pretty sure we're both thinking the same thing.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He rubs his temples.] But... I can't tell if it's them messing with us by taking these memories away and giving them back, or if they're even real to begin with!

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

That's why you have to trust you heart.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

But I...! [He stops himself there, shaking his head. He didn't want to sound like some cheesey romance novel, or a stupid lovesick teenager. He lights up another cigarette.

Quietly:] Damnit. I don't know.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

You know, I really don't like indecisiveness.

[she was only trying to help him, really]

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Normally Theo would snap at someone for saying something like that, but not now. Instead he just looks frustrated with himself, running a hand through his hair.]

Yeah, I know, I--- [A heavy sigh.] Look. If these are real, then... then you know how I feel about you. But I don't know... what you feel for me.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

...don't get me wrong. You're special to me but...I really love Fate.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He quiet again, taking a long drag on his cigarette. He gives a small nod, unable to look at Nanoha.]

Yeah. I know.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry if it felt like I led you along...

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Now is when the self pity ends, and the anger kicks in. He laughs bitterly.]

I should have fucking known it from the beginning! It's my own goddamn fault for--!

[He turns to storm away, before he said or did something he regretted.]

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

[Have a hug from behind, Theo.]

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Well that stops him dead.]

Goddamnit, don't... Don't do that.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

You can't be mad or angry. It's just not allowed.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

What am I supposed to feel, then? This whole situation is just... fucked up.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

Do what a man would do.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[...why did you have to say that, it was so much easier throwing tantrums. What he'd *like* to do is kick Fate off a cliff, or at least try to win back Nanoha, but this whole situation was so confusing to him he didn't know where to even start.

He turns around to Nanoha, taking her by the shoulders and looking her in the eye.]

I swear to God, if she ever so much as hurts one hair on your head...

Now... get out of here before I change my mind.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

...alright, fine. If that's what you want.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[Still with his hands on her shoulders, Theo closes his eyes a moment, thinking. When he opens them, he pulls her in for a long kiss.

When he finally pulls a way a bit:] No, that's what I wanted to do.

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

[Oh.

OH.

I don't have a blushyface icon so deal with it]

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He gives Nanoha a very serious look.]

You know what I feel. I can't decide anything for you.

[He goes to leave again, finally tearing himself away from her. Continuing further knowing that she'll leave him again for Fate would only cause him to start getting angry again.]

[gonnabefriendu.livejournal.com]

...good bye.

[sanctusdei.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't turn around, or say anything in return. But his fists tighten, and he picks up his pace.


Goddamnit it all.]